Sunday, November 18, 2007

Life goes on....

Haven't been updating this blog and honestly, it might be because I am reluctant to touch on the topic. I have not quite explained fully for the decision that I have made. Not that the reason really matters to all of you, just that maybe some of you might want to know.

But before I touch on that, I just want to congratulate my form class. I am really proud that all of you have managed to promote successfuly without any help from the school. My only fear now is for the weaker ones. You guys really have to work very hard to ensure that you catch up next year which is a highly crucial year. NEVER get complacent as it will only lead you to regret. C'mon guys and girls, it is going to be the last year, make a beautiful final dash. I have 100% faith that all of you will be able to go to your preferred choice! Remember! For those who wants to go poly, aim for 14 points and below (L1R4) while those who wants to go to JC, aim to score 18 and below (L1B5). Start finding information about the courses available and repeatedly ask yourself what do you want to do and decide on that quickly! Ms C won't be there for the 2nd part of the year to constantly nag at you. So, really, remember that you walk your own path!

As for the reason why Ms C has to go, to be very honest, I can't really find a concrete reason for that. One thing is for sure, it has absolutely nothing to do with all of you, students. I really like teaching the Sec 3s and the graduating students and I really wish that I could see all of you all the way to the Os! I guess having stayed at the same environment for 5 years, I really need to take a look outside. It is a case of having your sight shortened after staying put in the same place for too long. Also, not getting the appreciation that you think you deserved. (Nothing to do with the students, definitely) And of course, the feeling of exhaustion and tiredness is starting to set in. Not forgetting, at the end of next year, most of you would have moved on to another stage of your life and Ms C is also moving on to another stage of her life and with that, a fresh start in a new environment allows her to view things from a fresh perspective. Of course, I could choose to inform all of you later just before I leave, but changes will set in beginning of next year (e.g. form teacher and subject teacher change) and I do not want all of you to cope with such unexpected changes as next year is too important to the Sec 3s especially. Hene, by telling you now, you would be mentally prepared to cope with new changes come Jan 2008 and will be ready for the final dash next year and not be bothered by such changes because you are already mentally prepared.

I am not sure if what I have spoken here makes sense to you. I am sure the more sensible ones will understand and many of you respect my decision. I will really miss all of you. Being able to teach all of you has been one of the best journeys of my life, to date. Please remember, I may not be physically there after June 2008, but whenever you guys need help, I will be there. I am just a call away.

Friday, October 5, 2007

The final dash to 2007 finish line

I haven't been updating this blog for a while simply because time is really scarce on my side. I have been busy preparing the graduating classes work and lessons as well as marking as much work as I can. Not forgetting, tutorials and one to one remedials. Finally, I am having a short breather and SA2 is starting which means that I will only need to prepare lessons for the grad classes albeit I have 5 of them.

The past week has been emotinally draining for me. I had good times playing games with my form class, in hope that they can relieve some stress from preparation for the examinations only to be upset by a number of them the next day because they refused to learn to face consequences. One particular Sec 5 classes' lessons was constantly disrupted by this 'super attention seeker' whom I chased out the class after my patience wore off. But he really upset me when he started to be defiant and rude. The Sec 4 class is another big headache. Most of them never realise that I really hope to see them do well but at the moment, I feel that they are not that motivated despite the fact that O'levels are arriving in 2 weeks' time.

In conclusion, I am glad that the week is over. For the Sec 3s, do take the exams seriously. You know more than enough that aceing this exam is not a choice but a must. I just want to wish you all all the best! Do give in your best and DO NOT give up! For the graduating classes, you have only 2 weeks left. We, teachers, are trying our best to help you as far as possible but ask yourself, have you tried your best? Nonethless, hang in there!

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

The last dash to the final hurdle

It is finally the last term of the year! In another 3 weeks or so, the final examinations will start. It is quite heartening to hear that many of my students have started their revisions. I know that it will be a highly stressful period, but remember, it is the first part of the journey to realise the goals. So, the key now is to learn to manage the stress levels. Do remember to take a break when the pressure is getting to you BUT do not get complacent, as a result. HANG IN THERE, PEOPLE!

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Actually during the history class yesterday, I really wanted to flare up at the group of you again. Then again, I realised that the class was not just about the group of you. Just because you are selfish does not mean that I should forget the presence of the rest of the people. I know history is boring to some of you but please be understanding that planning a history lesson takes huge effort. I spent the whole afternoon on Sunday preparing this week's history lesson. The objective is simply: Teach the class the right methods to answer the questions. Honestly, how interesting do you expect this to get? If you have chosen to not follow the lesson or use 'don't know/don't understand as an excuse', then I am sorry...you are being left behind. It just means that you have to cover a longer distance.
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As requested by some of the history students, I am posting some links to good websites to help in your understanding of Hitler. A very good revision website is also included.

http://www.historyplace.com/worldwar2/riseofhitler/index.htm (This has many pop-ups which are irritaitng but it has a good overview about the life of Hitler.)

http://home.snu.edu/~dwilliam/s98/nazism/index.htm (A website summarising Nazism)

http://www.aushchwitz.dz (Note that this website is on holocaust and it has a number of disturbing pictures of the Jews in the concentration camps)

www.johndclare.net (an excellent revision website to help you to remember your work)

Hope that these are useful! Study hard!

Saturday, September 1, 2007

It is MY day!

WHOA HO!! It's Teachers' Day! Counting the years, this is my fifth Teachers' Day already! To be very honest, the number of presents received is decreasing as years passed by but I really don't mind it at all as the quality of presents is increasing. This year, for the first time, I received many 'Thanks yous". Most of them came in the form of cards and SMSes. For the first time, too, I received a really delicious chocolate cake from a few girls from my form class. I really appreciate the effort put in and I really LOVE it! The card is really sweet too! Not too mention the jellies, handicrafts, mugs, frames, chocolates, sweets, flower, cookies and many others. I really hope that you guys did not spend too much on the presents. Nonetheless, thank you for all the effort and sweet gestures.

Hmm...just a food for thought..what would make the best Teachers' Day present? My wishlist and it will sound really cliche:
  1. Sensible students who always do the right things


  2. Appreciation from students in the form of respect and attention


  3. Eagerness to learn new things and question when in doubt

Fortunately, most of my students do have the above but a significant group still have quite a long way to go. Maybe this will be a group who probably will never say 'thank you' and it would probably upset me the most as I probably have not made much of an impact on them. Nonetheless, it is MY day! I will not feel upset over such things.

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To my form class: I am really happy that most of you turned up at the Road Race in your class T-shirts! I am so glad that we bought orange T-shirts instead! Hee!




The Cake!

Our Nice Tee!

My wonderful girls!

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

What makes a teacher's day?

Honestly, I thought that today will be another lousy day, given the terrible 8-period day without a single break and a not so promising morning.

Well, it started off with a spot check by the DM. I was rather disappointed that one chose to play hide and seek instead of facing the consequences. I am pretty happy with the rest who got into trouble, as they just faced the music and respected the school rules. I have been quite disappointed with myself that after so many months, I still have not been able to make an impact on this particular one (actually there is another couple more). I knew he was angry as I 'turned him in' but if I did not do anything, he would not learn anything too.

My 8-period started promisingly with my 3E history. I was able to stay cool despite my unhappiness with the same group of girls again. Sometimes, I really wonder why they just don't get it? Teachers are only angry and upset when they care! When a teacher stops saying anything about your behaviour and work, it really means that you have lost the teachers' respect. It also means that he or she would rather spend the effort on the others who bother to learn. Other than the group, the rest were brilliant - well-behaved and on task! (Unfortunately, the IT failed us AGAIN!)

2nd stop was the 5As! Honestly, I like this class very much! However, today was the OFF day! I had to walk out of the class to cool down! Still, I lost it! Nonetheless, after losing my cool, I continued as though nothing happened as I was internally motivating myself to think of the really nice girls in the class.

Next was the 4E History class. I have always found this class really challenging. This is because I have a number of boys who have openly declared (though not in front of me) that they have given up on combined Humanities. Initially, I was really upset by them as they simply 'switched off' in class and disrupt my class. Despite getting the HODs involved, they still refused to change. I tried to change my approach too. I offered to give them extra lessons to help them, but apparently, they just treated my offer like a passing wind and even skipped my tutorials. So much for being kind. Anyway, now I have rationalised everything. I guess they are just bad time managers who cannot even handle the bare minimum. Coincidentally, these group of people also happen to have no CCAs. Is it because they are really that busy? Or they simply do not have that resilience and ability? Anyway, that was a side track. I was saying that the classwas ok today because of the girls again. I am really proud of the girls (and a few boys) in this class. They really came back despite having a difficult Sec 3 year. Their initiative and determination really won my respect and I really do not mind going all out to help them along. I know they will do well as long as they do not give up! (To Mr ELEPHANT, I am glad that I put you right in front as I know that you have learnt at least something today)

The final lesson was with another 5A class. Despite only taking over the class in June, I really like them very much. Think chekgu has done a great job guiding them. They were very understanding as they knew that I had the dreadful 8-period day and really cooperated, except for my cartoon characters in the centre. Trust me, I will make sure that you guys sit on the floor when you misbehave again!

You think the day is finally over, right? Well, not so! The icing of the cake came in the afternoon. I had tutorial with 2 Sec 3E history girls (and 1 boy). I am really glad to have that session with them as I have always respected pupils who takes initative. (Although in the case, they did not take the entire initiative) This really made my day as I know that I have helped them today.

After the rather long tutorial, with a number of interruptions, I went to meet the student leaders. It was a nice break from the staffroom as I was 'hanging out' in their clubhouse. I am really happy to see the school developing student leadership. I have been speaking about this for years and finally it has materialised. (haha...I have been speaking and not doing as I did not want to be 'shot') I think the current Sec 3s have a lot of potential. But they need to stay level-headed and always remember to do the right thing.

By the time I returned to staffroom, it was 4.30pm. Surprisingly, I was able to stay focused and finished quite a bit of my work till knock off time at 6.30pm.

So, what makes a teacher's day? Enthusiasm, initiative, positivity and lots of encouragement.

Friday, August 17, 2007

Motivation

This is a rather busy week, one again. But what makes this week really meaningful is the interaction I has with a few students.

She is often tired in class and falls asleep many times during lessons (but I know she does have some circumstances that caused her to be so tired) . Finally, I lost my final straw and asked her to sit up. Never did I know that that day, she was really sick. She was down with flu and cough and she came to school instead of taking MC as she did not want to stay home as she knew she would not be able to get the rest that she needed. After my outburst, she totally went quiet and she was angry with me. After I found out the truth, I decided to drop her a letter as we used to exchange notes a lot when she was in my form class last two years. I glad I apologise to her and wrote the letter. I saw her first sign of effort today! She managed to stay awake during my lesson today and we had a short remediation session to catch up on her History.

He is often distracted, playful and talkative in class. Finally, I lost it earlier this week when his pencil case came flying in my direction while I was writing on the board. Well, my first instinct was to really put a stop to this. Using my 'creativity' (a must when coming up with punishment in my school), I emptied the pencil case and hid all the items away in different. He was really MAD and refused to talk to me after lesson when he went around collecting his things. I approached him and he kept quiet. It was only after some probing before I found out the pencil was not thrown by him. I felt really bad. Nonethless, I told him to go back first and I stayed for a while to look for his missing pen which I found ultimately. The pen did not have any ink refill. When I returned to him the pen and gave him a new pen refill, there were no words of thanks nor any response from either of us. He just started doing his work.

Spoke to her this morning. This was after her friends alerted me yesterday that she has given up on her studies and lost all hopes in promoting to Sec 4. I was very disappointed upon hearing this and decided that I need to speak to her. Likewise, she was in my form class for the last two years, but not this year. I did speak her earlier this year to see how she is coping but since this beginning this term, I have no time to really sit down with her. I knew that this cannot wait. During the chat, I found out that her friends were right. She has lost all confidence. What I am glad is that at the end of the conversation, I knew that she is going to make the final dash. Whether she makes it or not, she is not going to leave it up to fate. I hope that her friends will help her and support her through these 8 weeks. 加油!

He was scribbing on some paper when I was carrying out a group activity. Took his paper away and told him to do his work. He simply said, ' I do not want to do it...you p***** me off'. That ticked me off. But refusing to confront, I simply told him to do his work and by the end of the lesson, I want to hear an apology. After a few minutes, I went back to his table and returned him the paper when he was still not doing his work. I coolly informed that I was disappointed and it was rude for him to comment that. Told him that after hearing what he said, I certainly felt the same way too. I walked off and after a while, he started doing his work. Before the end of the lesson, I went to his desk again and corrected his work and extorted the apology.

This week really seemed like a struggle of power between the students and myself. When such circumstances happen, it will simply drain the energy out of us. The takeaway is certainly something that we as social engineers often forget. We also make mistakes, there is no point blaming ourselves for the mistakes made. What is important is our effort to make things right. It is also about relations building and both side will need to learn to give way and compromise. I am glad that my students are willing to overlook my shortcomings and I am able to do the same too.

Monday, August 13, 2007

I am very proud...

Have been scratching my head, fretting over how should I continue after the first entry. Honestly, I have been so tired after weeks of staying behind in school, lesson preparations, 'baby-sitting' that everything seemed to have passed me by in a flash. But there is one event that I really must put a record to that. The success of choir at the Commendation Day last week!

After weeks of preparation and all the ups and the downs (due to costumes issues, technical bloopers and mess up), the final performance was indeed a success! For the first time, I could hear the audience truely cheering for the choir after a shaky start. The 3rd song was really the turn around. I could sense that the choir enjoyed singing the song and the audience enjoyed listening to them! See? Didn't I tell you guys that you have to be confident of yourselves (not complacent) and you MUST enjoy yourself before you want the audience to enjoy your performance! Kudos to every single one of you! Despite the initial unhappiness about the strict discipline rules and firm decisions, but I know it would pay off and I think it has. Most of you did not give major problems and really cooperated. Ms Chua is really touched and happy for the choir! Good job everyone! Believe in yourself! Do look forward to the end of the year project!

Saturday, July 21, 2007

A Typical Week

Ever since starting on this job 4 plus years ago, my typical work week starts on Sundays. I think I have been doing work on most Sundays (exclude holidays) except when I feel really burnt out or when there is some events to attend. Now here's how a typical week will look like.

Monday - Rush to workplace. Print and print worksheet. Teach lessons as per normal. Stay back in school to prepare some work and clear admin. Reach home at about 6 pm. Have dinner shower and then start preparing next day's lesson. Sleep between 11 to 12.

Tuesday - Rush to workplace. Print and print worksheet. Teach lessons as per normal. Stay back in school to prepare some work and clear admin. Tutorials, CCA and sometimes meetings. Reach home at about 6 pm. Have dinner shower and then start preparing next day's lesson. Sleep between 11 to 12.

Wednesday - Rush to workplace. Print and print worksheet. Teach lessons as per normal. Stay back in school to prepare some work and clear admin. Reach home at about 6 pm. Have dinner shower and then start preparing next day's lesson. Sleep between 11 to 12.

Thursday - Rush to workplace. Print and print worksheet. Teach lessons as per normal. Stay back in school to prepare some work and clear admin. CCA and sometimes meetings. Reach home at about 6 pm. Have dinner shower and then start preparing next day's lesson. Sleep between 11 to 12.

Friday - Rush to workplace. Print and print worksheet. Teach lessons as per normal. Stay back in school to prepare some work and clear admin. Leave school a bit earlier to meet Dar. Dinner and return home to rest.

Saturday - Aerobics. Try as much as possible not to work but sometimes not avoidable. Go out and have some fun.

Sunday (my least favourite) - Aerobics. Return home and start preparing work for next day.

As mentioned, this is a typical week. It has excluded the impromptu meetings, meeting with students, interaction with students and special projects and events preparation like COL.

Don't I get sick of such life? Well, yes definitely. In fact, sometimes I really feel lethargic in the morning and do not feel like going to school. But somehow, when I reach school and start my lessons, the energy would somewhat come back. I do feel alive in the classrooms but what is left at the end of the day, is often tiredness and huge amount of accumulated work.

Saturday, July 14, 2007

An Introduction

This is a platform, dedicated to my main motivation in my job - young people and the daily happenings in my life. Many people think that being a social engineer involves imparting knowledge and needs to have an authoritative persona to make sure that the future generation will learn something. However, many people conveniently forget that information is rampant in this fast-moving world and for all we know,the job of social engineering might just become obsolete.

During my 4 years in the job, I realise that this is the kind of job in which you will get in touch with up to 200 different people a day. Everything you say impact not just your boss, your colleagues but also young people who also have aspirations of their own. The direction of learning does not just take place from a social engineer to the young people. Honestly, the vice versa has happened to me and is still happening.

Thus, this is my main motivation to even take time to set this blog up. I want to share stories. However, due to my job, this is going to be a controversial move. Therefore, please note that NO real name will be mentioned. I am just sharing my thoughts and snapshots from my experiences.

Enjoy!